超越灵魂 | 死亡頻道
The isolation, loneliness, and hopelessness it portrays understood me.
Favorite track: 破碎的记忆
My comments on Bandcamp: Very harrowing and somber. I first listened to this during a really rough time in my life with mental illness, and although I probably shouldn't have, I kept coming back to it. The isolation, loneliness, and hopelessness it portrays understood me.
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This isn’t an album I can listen to often. As with many other deathdream titles I discovered around the same time, it reaches into the farthest depths of my harrowed soul and pulls out some of the darkest emotions I’ve experienced with mental illness, especially emptiness. That, in itself, speaks to the effectiveness of the music.
The isolation of the first track evokes those difficult nights when I didn’t want to be here anymore, and I’d lay down and meditate on my own death. I’d envision what life would be like with me gone; the quietness of my home and the sound of the world outside still moving, still living on. It often helped me get through the night and I’d wake up the next day and continue on.
The cover itself also makes me think of late nights in the hospital when you’re severely ill, just lying there alone with the beeping monitors wanting more than anything to be back home.
If you’ve dealt with some pretty dark feelings like that before, this album understands you. It may be difficult to listen to, but it’s hauntingly beautiful all the same.
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To read the story behind the album, which I highly recommend, head to the official Bandcamp page here. Beware that this album's story involves themes of suicide and death.